.::. :: 不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己 ::. :: :·.:

Photos!

2007-05-12T11:17:00.000+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS My Dearest Trainee Friends,
You have successfully completed the (fill in the blank yourself) practicum.
I will now officially announce:
It's time for enjoyment! =)

Haha.. Well, i've already enjoyed myself since yesterday.. Haha.. Eat Fish & Co... and go on shopping spree (Erm.. wad therapy u call tt?).. hee.. =P I dun care.. I muz go manicure, pedicure, cut hair, facial, yoga.... and hmm.. wad else can i do? *scratch head* Ha~ Wadever.. in short, I need to pamper myself for I'm reali deprived of all these things since 10 weeks ago.. Nobody is going to stop me...... Yeah.. NOBODY! =P

Kk.. to side track, Juz let me do a little update, I'm posted back to my prac sch.. PPS (if u noe wad it is).. Seriously, I dunno whether its a gd news or bad news.. haiz.. come to think of it, the only TWO reasons i will say its GD news are:

1) It's very near to my house.
2) The computers in the classrooms are gd..

AND TT'S IT. (FULL-STOP!)

3) third reason why it's gd news 2 b back in PPS: (as requested by my dear Annie) is bcos I'll b in gd hands working with her.. [she said muz add in, so here i am] =P

(p/s: Annie, Dun get it back at me... =XX)

But i STILL can find more reasons to consider it bad news...

So, gd or bad? U decide. ha~ =X

Alrite, now, I'll share some memories of this practicum thru the following photos... Sit back, relax and enjoy! =D

My P3

My P5

Ppl I worked with @ PPS

Celebrating May DayS

2007-05-05T04:07:00.000+08:00

It's finally May! A long awaited month is FINALLY here! There's so many reasons to celebrate in May! Juz let me share some with u guys.. ;)

First and foremost, 1st of May - Its Labour Day! Finali a holiday, a break from Practicum! (Isn't tt a GREAT day, my NIE frenz? hee~) [Thou i've been having break since 1 wk ago, cos of Chicken pox.. but muz be happy for u all too ma.. =P]

Secondly, 5th May - A SPECIAL DAY btwn Me and My Beloved.. Hee~... =)

Thridly, 8th May - I can finally take down tt ugly P-plate on Dar's car.. hahaha... yeah~! ;p

And lastly, 11th May - The BEST reason to celebrate! It's THE END OF PRACTICUM~!! Woo Hoo~~ =D

However, this is only abt the first half of May.. I dunno whether by the 2nd half of May, will i still be so happy notz.. But wadever.. Juz let me enjoy this first half ba... ;)

Thank God!

2007-04-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

Hi all, yeah.. Finally i'm back.. Haha... But first of all.. I muz Thank God for this time i'm sitting in front of comp, NOT for LESSON PLANS, but blogging.

Muz be wondering why i so 'eng' rite? Cos i've finished my observations? Hmm.. HALF correct. Cos.. its long weekend?? PARTLY.

The real reason why i'm now blogging n i entitled this blog "Thank God" is.... Cos God is giving me TWO WEEKS break from practicum. HUH? WHY? COS~~

having

CHICKEN

POX!!

hahaha~ =P

Call this LUCKY or BLESSING.. cos it came after my obs.. N i BADLY needed some rest. The past 7 weeks almost killed me. Seriously, i'm not joking. I almost went into depression, or rather i suspect i already had mild depression then. I have all sorts of NEGATIVE tots n i juz break down for no reason. If not for some helping hands i received during tt period, mayb by now i've already gone insane.

However, God is fair la. Give me a break while things stirred up. Cos i'm too busy with preparing for the once-a-week(or sometimes 2 a wk) obs, i've neglected some worksheets markings. And to take time for my obs, i did not follow the SOW(scheme of work) strictly. So there r some workshts undone. N now, i'm having chicken pox, while my CTs need to take over the class, and they found out abt the markings n stuffs. Haiz.. ALL my hard work got down the drain, cos impression mark DEDUCTED. Got scolded big time.

Wadever la, i'm reali tired of this practicum. Juz let me pass this practicum, and get out of the school. This practicum is the worst nightmare i ever had for this 22yrs. This practicum 让我看到了人性的丑陋，更看到了人类的可怕。。。。

BUT, i Thank God tt 在这个可以为了争名夺利而明争暗斗、勾心斗角的现实世界里，还有人愿意伸出援手，拉了这名面临崩溃的女孩一把，救了这世上的一条生命。。。。。。

简简单单

2007-04-11T13:59:00.000+08:00

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2007-02-28T05:29:00.000+08:00

2006-10-16T16:10:00.000+08:00

有没有那么一首歌会让你想起我？

光良、
梁静茹、
周杰伦、
孙燕姿、
张惠妹、

和

所有的钢琴乐……

都会令我想起你。

那你呢？

《心情》

2006-10-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

曾经幸福，
不懂珍惜。
如今后悔，
却已莫及。
过往温柔，
烟消云散。
快乐与否，
心中做择。

The Lizard Story Continues...

2006-10-07T02:12:00.000+08:00

Special Thanks to Sandra for teaching me the methods of smacking a lizard. I didn't have a chance to use it yet cos after she taught me, the lizards seemed to noe my plan and therefore gone into hiding. Anyway, at least they hide n never scare me again la... =X

Let me juz recap the lesson learnt:
1) Find a think magazine or stack of newspaper.
2) Roll them up.
3) Aim the lizard QUIETLY.
4) 1..2..3 "PI~AK!!" AtTaCk! at ur own risk..

Pros:
a) Immediate Damage.

Cons:
a) U need to haf magazines or newpapers forever standby.
b) U got to be gd at aiming correctly at ur target.
c) Need to collect the body.

Results: Good. If ur reaction is fast. Result not guarantee.

But for ppl like me who is DARN SLOW in reaction.. GD NEWS! I found a gd way to catch the lizards. Let me introduce to u... *drum roll*....

Directions:
1) Behind packet. Read carefully before use!
2) Place traps anywhere u think the lizards will visit.

Pros:
1) 2 traps in one packet for the price of $3.50. Each last for 2 months after opening.
2) U just need sit back and relax to wait for the lizard to trap itself.

Cons:
1) U need to clear the body. Use it only if u r brave enough to do this. If not ppl like poor Irene, my dear roomie, will have to suffer. Sorry rene... =X

Results: Guarantee! Dun believe? I got evidence! Wanna see? Let me show u...

WARNING:
The following photo may make u feel unwell.
以下画面可能令您不适。

See at ur own risk.
.

A lizard caught in the trap.

Hostel Alone...

2006-09-29T02:25:00.000+08:00

You muz have been shocked by a pop-up which says "Click to run an ActiveX control on this webpage" right? Dun worry frenz, juz click "OK". As I've juz added a song on the website, tts y there's this pop-up. =)

***********

It's 2plus in the morning now. I'm still wide awake. It's been like this the whole week. I slept in the morning and noon, den work at night. My whole body system is not functioning correctly. Can't think properly, feeling lazy. I wanna sleep, eat, slack... just anything, except doing work and studying.

Been trying so hard to finish my DED assignment for the past few days, but i juz can't concentrate. I gave myself till wed to finish assignments, den four days to study my upcoming chinese lit test. But well, its friday now, n i'm not even half way done my DED assignment! HELP! Gonna flung my test again?.. NO WAY~! I need to pull up my socks man.. but can somebody lend me a pair?.. I dun haf one in my hall.. plus my socks r all ankle socks, limited length to pull... *lame* (-_-''')

It's suppose to be recess break for us, but there are so many things which needs to be completed... Assignmets and Studying of tests. Man, everyone is so stressed up. I tot i wouldn't be stressed... till now....

**********

Anyway, i'm alone now in the hall.. Was so frightened by lizards in my room. I juz hate lizards. They run so fast, u'll nv be able to catch or kill them. And i juz dun like their colour. *EeEeW~* I'm so paranoid now. Any little noise will make me go crazy. R the lizards near me? Can somebody help me get rid of them?... I feel so insecure and scared now... and i'm in need of a hug to calm me down... I need a man who can give me securities by catching the pests i hate....

**********

自创“古典”文学作品

2006-09-12T02:24:00.000+08:00

单元编号/名称：

LAL 001 自创“古典”文学作品 (0 学分)

21世纪诗七言绝句

《缘起缘灭》

初当缘起情意深，
回首欢愉1彼持扶。
缘灭人踪无处寻，
可怜佳人2等寻念。

注释:

1) 彼持扶: 彼持扶持

2) 等寻念: 等待、寻找、想念

译文:

当初缘分降临时，两人情意深厚，曾互相扶持，也一同度过美好日子。同伴踪迹无处可寻，代表着缘分已尽。只留佳人在原处，等待着、寻找着、想念着同伴。

这是一首失败的七言绝句诗。其实这首诗早在几个月前已写好，但觉得很失败，所以也就没把它写出来。但今天在上古文课时，忽然也想现一现自己的“才华”，所以决定把它拿出来献丑了。哈~ =）

这是本诗人的第一创作，请多指教哦！

希望你懂得欣赏！;)

Juz Woke Up After Hibernation..

2006-08-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

YaWnZ.. I had such a long sleep... Been in hibernation for half a year.. Great~ New Start! I HOPE~! (-_-'''')

Anyway, during this "say-long-not-long, say-short-not-short" period, I would say, lotsa things happened... Happy and Sad stuffs...

For the happy side,

I'm officially 21 yrs old. (dotz.. I shld haf said tt 5 mths ago.. In April..=X)
I went on holidays to Bintan and Bangkok in June with my beloved and friends.. (for the 1st time my parents allow me to go overseas without them tagging along)..
I got posted to PUNGGOL PRIMARY SCHOOL for Teaching Assistantship for 5 weeks and I LOVE tt school.. ('cos its darn NEAR my house + my CTs & Supervisor are super nice ppl~!)...

BUT.. at the same time...

I saw how people changes, be it physically, mentally or even spiritually. I saw how relationships comes and goes. I saw how human can grow and change within a split second of time... I experienced changes in myself... Changes tt I never expect i will have...

Well, wadever it is, we cannot turn the clock back isn't it? So.. wad for dwell in the past? Look forward... let the bygones be bygones... ...

失去和拥有只在一线之差... ...

I'm in search for a new identity..

读萧红《小城三月》分析里的一段话 -- 关于爱

2006-03-08T17:40:00.000+08:00

爱是一种发自内心的和谐的冲动。
爱是一种力量，是一个让人心动的发现。
爱是一种积极的情绪。
爱是要将自己内心有生命的东西给予别人，从而提高了自己的生命感，
并在对方身上唤起某种有生命力的东西。

爱情应该建立在平等自主理解基础上。
平等是人格精神的平等，
只有理解才有共同分享的可能，
只有爱情主体的积极追求才有爱情的完美。

如果相信人间有真爱，就对爱情忠心。

要爱, 就不要怕受伤害。

Stressed...

2006-03-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Juz came back from a one week break.. Well, i wld say.. no break at all lah.. Gotta study for a test which is 50% of the whole module.. Argh..~ Let me tell u how worried I am for the test..

As the day approched the end of the break, meaning nearing the test, i got Insomnia.. I couldn't sleep properly.. and for the last 3 days of the break.. I practically got nightmares everynight. It's been such a long time tt i got nightmares... It was so scary that sometimes i would wake up in the middle of the night.. Haiz.. tt was how worried i am for this test..

Anyway, its already over by now.. N i dunno how i did.. Juz tried my best... Alrite, beside this test.. i got lotsa test coming up this March... Almost every wk got one.. Haizz.. Hope i wun get insomnia again... =(

Up Coming Test/Exams:

MARCH

1) 7 Mar (Tues) - DCC101.2 Teaching of Chinese Language II TEST
(语言课程设计与发展)

2) 8 Mar (Wed) - DSJ 100 Survey of Modern Chinese Literature TEST
(现代文学概观)

3) 16 Mar (Thurs) - DSC 100 Modern Chinese Grammar TEST
(华文教学语法)

4) 27 Mar (Mon) - DLK 100 Communication Skills for Teachers PRESENTATION EXAM

5) 28 Mar (Tues) - DCC 101 Teaching of Chinese Language II EXAM

6) 30 Mar (Thurs) - DSC 100 Modern Chinese Grammar TEST

A survey..

2006-02-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Dear FrEnZz...
This is a survey regarding my 21st bday...

Where do you prefer to go?

1) My house (hougang) -->
Bad pt: Parking lots limited.. needs coupon for parking..
Good pt: -Accessible, with interchange and NEL / -Can visit my pigsty

OR

2) Chalet (Aloha Changi) -->
Bad pt: -Only bus 29 frm tampines interchange / -shuttle bus frm pasir ris MRT (but will go Aloha Loyang 1st)
Good pt: -bigger place for roaming and programmes or games if any

Suggestions for programmes/games/theme

Theme:
1) Retro or u suggest...

Programmes/Games:
Still looking for volunteer programmers.
But suggestion welcome.

Results of survey will be posted at later date.

My 21st Birthday Plan

2006-02-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

I was told to plan my 21st birthday early.. But I dun reali care.. till... NOW... I'm beginning to panick.. It's juz abt 1 month away~ [YES! its coming..for those who dunno.. its on 2nd April.. -hint- ;)]

My Initial plan:
to hold the party at..
1) My house (hougang,12th storey)
2) My void deck (where there is bigger place, but too public)
3) The park behind my flat (no toilet!)
4) Chalet

food
1) Cater
2) BBQ
3) Mum's (or plus relative's cooking)

Programmes
1) Lucky draw
2) Games (???)

Theme
[????]

As mentioned earlier, i'm feeling lazy to study.. so i went to check out the chalets.. from 31/3(fri) to 2/4(sun)..

Aloha Loyang: 1/4(sat) fully booked.. breakage in btwn e 3 days...
Aloha Changi: left 5 terraces with the 3 days free.. most reali nice and accessible ones r taken up.. or left with only one day...

See la.. now how? I'm not too sure whether i'll book chalet.. or at my house.. Hey frenz.. where wld u prefer? Hmm.. food wise.. most prob shld be catering...

As for programmes and theme(can do w/o theme, its ok)... I here by announce tt

PROGRAMMERS WANTED~!!

Anyone interested?

Pls leave a tag!

I will contact you soon.. =)

Job Scope: plan programmes on the day of party, and.. act as 'decorator' as well... (to decorate place of party IF POSSIBLE)
Salary: the price of my birthday gift, i.e No birthday present required from u.
Benifit: save the trouble to buy birthday gift and writing card.

Any enquiries, feel free to tag me at the tagboard at the side bar.
Thanks.

Yours sincerely,
Lin =)

P/s: Any suggestions for my party are welcome~! =)

Juz an update as requested... =P

2006-02-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

Yoz.. Long long nv blog le.. Shall start updating ONCE AGAIN... Hopefully... it will last.. haha.. =p

Hmm.. I'm feeling so lazy.. Contradicting.. Lynnie ask me not to be lazy, muz blog.. But here i m, feeling lazy.. and blogging.. Haha~ =)

Haiz.. Anyway, I'm not suppose to be here, reali.. i NEED to study.. LOTSA tests coming up... But i reali dunno how to start!!~ The modules this sem require so much memory space.. My local disk up in my head is not enough~! Somebody help upgrade me please~!!!!

I'm in my hostel now.. the stupid drilling(construction site) RIGHT beside my room is driving me crazy... driving all my thots messy.. ArGhHh~ ... Well, luckily.. its recess week le... I'm going get out of this place! Hopefully by next wk the drilling will be finished... I pray... haiz...

Blog Under Construction

2006-01-18T16:57:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I know... This blog is super duper OuTdAtEd...
But friends~! Please wait patiently k?

This Blog Is now Under Construction.

Do come back to check once in a little while for more exciting news...! ;)

p/s: Meanwhile, Taggie is still in use.... =P

Love,
LiN.. =)

一时的感触...

2005-12-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

收音机播着伤心的歌曲
读着感人的日记
心情不禁感到很沉重。

她对爱情的认真
从之前的投入
到后来的坚强
使我十分地敬佩她。

我与她根本不相识
她是我朋友的朋友
只是在好奇心的驱使下
我读了她的网上日记。

我仿佛走进了她的世界
随着她的真实心情
我，感动落泪了。。。

爱情这东西，
拥有了好麻烦，
少了又拼命想。。。

*你* 要加油哦！=)

I'm the Little Prince?!....

2005-11-30T03:22:00.000+08:00

You are the little prince.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
(courtesy of Jelena)

Not too sure if i'm the Little Prince... But I love this phrase:
"The eyes are blind. One must look with the heart..."

My Year 1 Sem 1 in NIE

2005-11-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

Alrite.. I've come to the end of my Yr1 Sem1 in NIE.. Mayb I shld comment abit about my half yr stay of my Uni life.

This whole semester has a fair mixture of fun and stress. It's my first time staying away from home.. Staying in hostel is reali a brand new experience for me. Reali have to be independent and do every 'household chores' by ourselves (my roomie and I). Also, we have to settle our own meals.. Eh.. though we often eat instant food, like instant noodles or biscuits... =X

Joined the hall welfare and publicity committees... Not becoz i'm OnZ.. but more due to the points i needed to stay in hostel.. They took up qt alot of my free time.. but they can be fun sometimes though. Made some new frenz in hall but no close one.. all Hi-Bye frenz or only tok when there r meetings.

In school.. not much work initially.. but when the course is approaching the end, all assignments came together which stressed many of us up. One month of Oct, there can be up to 15 assignments of even more for some ppl. We reali had a hard time. Though i like the idea of having assignment-based grading than exam-based... but that amount of assignments were way too much for anyone to take.

Perhaps I wasn't prepared to get so much assignments and wasn't familiar with doing assignments as exams and writing 1000+ words reports, I dread doing them. Thus pressures tend to build up as the due dates approaches. Thou in the end i still managed to complete them all (of coz i have to.. duhz -_-''') , I feel i didn't reali put in my best for some, esp those Ed Psy modules.. Haiz..

Assignments and stress weren't the things that sadden me... What particularly disappointed me was.. I din have many new frenz.. I mean closer frenz than acquaintances. I feel kind of lonely actually.. has been moving around alone most of the time.. Now that i'm in NIE most of the time, whereas my gd frenz r all in NUS, lost touch with them, yet no new frenz to satisfy my 'friends craving'... For those who noe me, I'm someone who cant live without frenz... so.. I'm kinda upset... Beginning to miss my frenz... ....

Ha.. Dunno whats wrong with me.. wasn't as active as b4 le.. M i getting old?... haha.. =X No la.. i think one of the reason was becoz i'm staying in hall.. so most of the time, after lessons or when there is break, i'll return to my room... not enough time to chat, to let the relationship grow.. no chance to go home with frenz.. thats y... mayb i shld stay out more nxt yr?... hmmm.. yeah.. may b i shld... =P

All in all.. So far, Uni life wasn't as gd as i tot... Feel that i haven done my best in my work.. Haven open up myself to accept the new things or ppl around me... Shall have a 'make-over' nxt yr.. yeah.. but... how ar.. i'm still thinking... still thinking... thinking...

What kind of animal are you?

2005-11-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

Saw this quiz on Dimas' blog.. Nothing to do.. So i tried..
And here's the result.. How true is it?... U decide.. ;)

You Are A: Puppy!

Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your playful and friendly nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!

You were almost a: Bear Cub or a Pony
You are least like a: Chipmunk or a Squirrel What Cute Animal Are You?

I am officially FREE~!! =)

2005-11-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yeah~ after SLOWLY cancelling my assignments-to-be-done list one by one .... i now declare that ... I AM FREE AND EASY AS OF TODAY~!! whahaha.. =X

Had my last exam paper today.. actually, to be exact, it's my one and only exam paper... The paper lasted 2 and half hr... and i was like continuously writing for that whole 2 and half hr.. And only when the paper finally ended, did i realised tt my arm was so pain and tired.. i almost couldn't straighten my right arm~! I was reali amazed.. Where did i get all that strength? Perhaps its because i'm afraid i'll not have enough time if i were to stop.. coz i noe i'm slow in writing.. and bad at expressing my view... thus.. i need every single second...

Anyway.. dun ask me "How's the paper?".. Cos i reali dunno... Did my best.. Tried to write as many as i could le.. But somehow, i still feel tt my points are not enough.. Well.. Wad can i do now? except praying hard.. and the rest will be up to my tutors and.. well.. God too~ hee.. =P

Last of all... And once again... I wanna shout: "I AM FINALLY FREE!".... Free of assignments, free of exams, free of stress... and most importantly.. FrEe FoR DaTeS*~! ;)

*Be it YOU** date me.. or i date YOU**.. =P

** YOU = anyone.... =)

Assignments to be done...

2005-10-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

As requested by Sandra and Kailing...
Here are the assignments we need to do... let me noe if i missed out any k? ;)

~~1) DED 101 Individual Differences Report cum Presentation[group] (5/10 Wed)~~

~~2) DCZ 100 Flash Powerpoint (latest by 7/10 Fri)~~

~~3) DED 102 Reflection Log (in the wk of 10-14/10)~~

~~4) DED 101 Classroom Management Seminar Presentation[group] (17/10 Mon)~~

~~5) DED 101 Individual Differences Group Assign 2: Presentation on an area of special needs (19/10)~~

~~6) DED 101 Classroom Management Write-up on application of discipline models to a case study[Individual] (24/10 Mon)~~

~~7) DED 100 Educational Psychology I PBL Group Assignment (in the wk of 24-28/10)~~

~~8) DED 102 PBL ICT-Based Learning Package (in the wk of 24-28/10)~~

~~DCZ 100 Hot Potatoes (End of October)~~

~~10) DCZ 100 考试报告 (End of October)~~

~~11) DED 100 Educational Psychology I Individual Essay (4/11)~~

That's all for now.. will update here if there's more..
But hopefully no more will come in.. pls pray hard everyone~

p/s: Pls note tt if u r taking different course from me, due date might be different...

Anyway, my dear friends, please hang in there yeh? Dun stress urself up.. take it easy.. Remember.. STRESSED will soon become DESSERTS... =)

Life is never a bed of roses... But you always turn out a better person at the end of the day...

... ...不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己... ...

:: Eh..i'm sorry for the bad Colour Combination.. =X ::

Where's ME??

2005-09-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

Something is happening to me.

I felt like i'm not me anymore. For the past 2 days, i've been abnormally quiet. I didn't dare to speak up even thou there were thots in my mind. I chose to keep quiet and be a passive follower. I'm afraid of many things, the small insects, the trees, the water... These are the things i normally will "cool-ly" overcome.

But this time round was different.

I was kind of like living in my own world,

thus didn't really enjoyed the camp so far.

I missed home and I couldn't really adapt this time.

What's happening?

Something is holding me back... but i dunno wad.

Is that something good or bad? I dunno.

I'm LoSt.

... ...I need to find myself back fast... ...

14/09/05 (Day 3)

8:31 am

Isolation Time

OBS Camp 2 Jetty

OBS Resilience Course (12 Sept - 15 Sept)

2005-09-20T14:24:00.000+08:00

Can't believe it~! It's my only break this whole sem..And it's only ONE week..BUT yet i actually went for OBS for 4 whole days.. Hmm...

Well.. I'm not going to tell u in details what we did from Day 1 - Day 4 like before. I'm juz going to give u a brief account of the activities we did. In short, we only did kayaking (Day 1 & 2) and Trekking (Day 3 & 4). -end of story- Haha~ i'm not joking here.. It's true.. =)

Previously in June, i went for ABS(another course of OBS), expecting to haf physical 'trainings'. But there was none. So i decided to join this OBS. N yupz i've got all the PhYsIcAl i wan..

However,I was reali challenged.Didn't reali enjoy much probably due to my low adaptabilty, as we camped out in unfamiliar places for 3 nights. First night was reali bad for me.We've kayak-ed for the whole day. With sea water on us + we got stuck in the storm in the big open sea + sweat due to first time kayaking and it was d*** difficult + we CANNOT bathe + karaokae session frm nearby kelong, how can i sleep? Reali tired but was afraid of the dark too. Wake up every hr juz hoping to see the sun.For the first time i missed the big bright sun up there. Without much rest, i woke up the next morning in a very bad mood...

The next 2 nights got better.The place we camped was better. Not that dark and at least there is toilet. But, now, e problem is, we have to trek to our destination with our big heavy bags. Our bags are filled with our rations - canned food,biscuits,bread,noodles,fruits, and oso pots and tins and of cos our own stuffs such as clothes and shoes, oh, n life jackets too. I reali feel like i've grown inches shorter after that.

This time round, I feel tt i didn't open myself up much. Didn't speak much during our discussions. Reali dunno wad went wrong. It's reali a pity tt i only started to open up more during the last 2 days. Couldn't enjoy when i'm in my own world. Althou i wouldn't say this course was fun, i would say tt its one unforgettable experience for me. At least, thru this camp, i begin to rediscover myself - the more quieter side of me... ...

This is before we set off..

After a day of SeA, RaIn and SwEaT..(This is where we camp for the 1st night)

Setting off for Trekking..(we stayed here for 2nd nite)

Look at those BIG bags on our back~!

Girls PoWeR~!

See how tired and frustrated i am..

EXHaUsted..

We trekked 8 HRS here.. Our 3rd nite was spent here.. Best campsite of the 3...

I survived anyway.. =)(btw, tt's our instructor, Steven)

Finally..The Last Day... =)

p/s: Click the pictures to enlarge them for better view.. =P

Pictures: Courtesy of our ever cute NuRsE..Dimas.. ;)

Around The Small World In Hall 13

2005-08-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

YoZ~ Tired of waiting? -tsk tsk- Poor thing... Well well, tts y i decided to release u from ur waiting.. =X

As many of u shld know, I'm now already in NIE.. And time flies, I'm here for 6 weeks le.. Well, i stayed in hostel since Day 1.. And i really love tis place.. Thou its qt small, but it's cosy~! N i LOVE my bed.. haha~ shall take u for a tour! Ready?.. There u go.... =)

Welcome...

This is wad u'll see when u 1st stepped in...

The other side of the room

My lovely corner.. with..

..My Comfy BeD.. and..

..My MeSsY working place!~ =X

Hello Kitty Magnets on clothes hanger.. =P

Who dun like to stay pretty?! ;)

View outside door.. Peaceful eh... BuT~...

...I'm THIS near to e construction site.. =(
[ building of new hostels with air-con~!! =( =( ]

p/s: Click the pictures to enlarge them for better view.. =)

黑夜里的星星

2005-07-07T10:06:00.000+08:00

黑夜一直是寂寞的。在黑夜里，能见到的是伤了心的人们，哭泣的灵魂，对人、事、物的失望。黑夜最期待的是光芒，能带来希望的曙光。但若要等到早晨光芒的出现，漫漫长夜又该怎么挨？

直到星星的出现，黑夜开始看见希望。星星布满了天空，也照亮了黑夜。星星让黑夜不再寂寞，让冰冷的黑夜有了一丝温暖。

黑夜喜欢上了星星。喜欢有星星陪伴的日子，点缀着原本无生气的黑夜。星星仿佛代表了和平，安抚着在黑夜里寻找着平静的心。满天的星星，为黑夜增添了许多的微笑。

但是星星身旁总有月亮陪伴。在有月亮的日子里，星星便显得暗淡，不为黑夜而发出光芒。偶尔也会有云朵的出现，星星便会和云朵游戏，让黑夜找不着星星。

没有星星的黑夜，一切回到从前。孤独、寂寞、伤心、失望，又再次找上门。黑夜多么期待星星快点儿出来，停止所有悲伤。黑夜只要能见到星星，就算有月亮，黑夜天空只会更显漂亮。满天闪烁的星星，为黑夜带来了安慰，抚平了创伤。

但黑夜又可曾知，星星一直都在，哪怕是早晨，星星一直都在。星星也渴望黑夜的来临，因为只有在黑夜降临时，星星才能发出它那耀眼的光芒。。。

《热浪岛历险记》The Adventure of the Lin(g)s.

2005-06-14T12:08:00.000+08:00

Have u ever watched 《夏日的麽麽茶》？Its actually juz like any another romance show, starring Richie Ren （任贤齐）& Sammi Cheng （郑秀文）. But wad attracted me wasn't much of the story line, but the BEAUTIFUL beach tt the story was based on. Crystal clear blue sea water, soft white sand, bikini girls & muscular hunks. Tts not wad u can find in s'pore. Tts why, ever since i watched this show, i've been hoping to go to Pulau Redang, Malaysia.

Finally, I got the chance this June. Was planning this trip since beginning of May. Went down to Chinatown a few times juz to look for the best deal. Then, my friends n i finally settled for a 3D4N trip for $300+, with 2N resort stay, free meals @ resort & 3 snokelling trips. Cool~ Everythings went on so smoothly. N we r all so excited abt it. Getting all ready for tis trip: buying basic necessities, swimsuits, getting trained to look better for a 2-piece swim wear, going on diet...blah blah blah~ =)

N the time ticked by. N THE day came. 10 June 2005. Reached Golden Mile Complex at abt 9pm+. Coach going off at 10pm. We den walked ard, bored, sit at the agency & started our 'illegal gambling' - - Playing Dai Dee. 10pm. Boarded coach. Photo taking session. 'Questioning' session [<-Irene knows tis session best! ;P]. Reached Tuas Checkpoint. Den the AdVeNtUrE begins....

To continue the story, pls click here <+*IrEnE*+> . N look for titles "Aloha Redang~ Episode 1 - 4". Full detailed story can be found there. =X

*p/s: ONCE AGAIN.. SpEcIaL ThAnX.. & MiLLiOnS of Thanks to Miss Irene for providing such wonderful detailed write-up on this unforgetable adventure in search for 'new land'. =)
**Okie.. I know i'm lazy.. But copyright permission is AGAIN, seeked beforehand. =P

Juz some thoughts..

2005-06-08T11:03:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to love the time given to myself. It's been a LONG time since i've tok to myself, communicating with ME, understanding ME...

I'm someone who cannot live without friends. But this time given to be alone really made me think alot. In life, not only relationship with people & spiritual support are important, relationship with our own self is important too.

When alone, You can think about anything and everything. It's all secrets between YOU and ur SOUL. Nobody else will ever noe these secrets...Once u can share a secret with somebody, tis means tt ur relationship with this person will rise to another level.. this applys when u share secrets with ur soul too~..

We are always so busy with our work, social life and family, neglecting our own soul. We forgot that sometimes, we need time to tok and entertain ourselves too..

Sometimes what other people say is not tt important afterall. Listen carefully to what ur heart, ur soul is telling u. They yearn to tok to u too~!!..

1.46pm

04/06/05

Walk Of Life

OBS Indiana (Station 10)

TrUsT, CaRe, LoVe...

2005-06-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

人的情感很奇妙。
跟着时间、地点和人物改变。
人的情感也很难捉摸。
没有人会了解另一个人
此时此刻的心情、感觉。

沟通、接触，
或许是进入另一个人的情感世界，
最好的途径。
只要懂得放开自己，
有着对别人的关怀，
才能进一步去认识一个人。
当然，
对方也要有同样的想法才行。

人的情感世界很复杂。
只有信任、关怀和爱，
才能溶化一颗封闭的心。。。

9:15am

04/06/05
Self-Reflection Time
Outside Denali Room, OBS

SingaTouch VII (1 - 5 June 2005)

2005-06-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

I'm back from OBS, or rather, ABS (Artward Bound Singapore). Why m i so particular abt whether its 'O' or 'A'? Coz, OBS & ABS r two different courses. Thou i've nv been to OBS, but hearing from wad my frenz who went b4, i conclude tt they r two VERY different coures..

I'm expecting to have a hectic 5 days camp initially. Tot i'm going to have some 'chiong sua chiong hai' activities (strenenous outdoor activities), I'm all ready to get slim down for my nxt trip - - To Pulau Redang, where i'll b wearing 2-piece for e 1st time in my life -whistle- ~wee~whee~ =X

But well, it turned out to b total opposite of wad i tot. Its reali very ART-ward. We've learned to appreciate different races' cultures, creating Colour Mass, using lots of our imagination n creativity in various activities and even time given for self - reflection..

Cool activities, cool instructors, cool camp-mates...
In short, a camp i never regret going & a camp i'll never forget... =)

Following is the itinery for the 5 days: (BEWARE~! Read this only if you are VERY free!..)

DAY 1
=> Reported at Fort Canning Green Gothic Gate at 9.27am
=> Tour of Fort Canning (Sally Port) and Fort wall where Gideon appeared
~Tied a rope around the wall and invited us to abseil down the wall
~Steven (Tour Guide) played along and insisted that it was against the safety regulation.
=> Proceeded to have a briefing by Shukor (Body Guard of Sang Nila Utama) about our filming(documentary) for the first 2 days.
=> Walked to Little India (20 Mins)
=> Lunch at Tekka Market
=> My group 'S' (Irene, Hsu, Joon, Moi, Judith[大妈], Chris[二妈], Patsy, Samuel, Sheena and myself) was assigned to learn Jasmine Garland Weaving {not easy man~ Patience!} from Jothi Flower Shop, while the other groups filmed the other aspects of the Indian Culture.
=> Walked over to Bugis Mrt Station to take a train to Changi Airport before transferring bus 36 to SparkC @ East Coast Park to spend the night.
=> Put our barang barang in the tree hut (Pluto) .
=>Proceeded to our 1st activity in SparkC : The Frame
~A frame was made by tying 4 poles together, and was hung between 2 trees.
~We were asked to describe ourselves using an imaginary portrait we painted.
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My Painting:
Inside of a house with yellow walls ~> House: Family; Yellow: Favourite colour.
One corner with my friends, another corner shows children playing with animals ~> Friends: Cant live w/o them; Children: I love kids!; Animals: I like animals too~!
Open e door, view outside divide into 2
- 1)badminton court with a bed by e side ~> Love exercising but lazy. Opps! =X
- 2) beach with starry night ~> Stars: Love stars, feel tt star represent peace; Beach: yearn for a relax life w/o worries.
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=> Dinner – Indian Themed, ate with our hands
=> Debriefing + briefing for Day 2 activities
~Planned routes
=> Invitation to have tea with minister of Art & Craft Communication.
=> Did an ‘email’ box
=> Supper ~ Chocolate Sara Lee cake

DAY 2
=> Morning PT at 7am
=> Breakfast ~Beehoon + Hotdog
=> Calming / Relaxation Sequence
=> Colour Mass ~painting with hands
=> Pack up to leave SparkC
=> Off to Kampong Ubi CC Malay Heritage Centre (Bus 36 + walk)
=> Lunch at Joo Chiat Complex
=> Chinatown by bus 2
=> Tour of Chinese Heritage Centre (A MUST visit place for ALL chinese!)
~ Found out part of previous day's recordings were overwritten.
=> Made our way to Punggol Jetty by NEL and bus 82
=> Met Sang Nila Utama(acted by Steven) ~ Intro to Senario
=> Search for Temasek ~ ROWed part of the distance to Pulau Ubin
=> Enjoyed the Sunset
=> Dinner ~ Chinese Themed (Cheong sam!)
=> Proceeded to Learning room (Denali)
=> My Frame ~ framed up a little part from our Colour Mass, describe y u chose it.

DAY 3
=> Breakfast at 8am
=> Wrote emails at Denali
=> Crossfields ~ searching for checkpoints based on map navigation in OBS forest.
~ hiked over to OBS reservoir
=> Alpine Rescue ~ transport casualty through various obstacles
=> Lunch ~Malay Themed (Spicy!)
=> Set up cultural corners in Denali
~ Did Indian corner
=> Proceeded to "The Indiana" for 'Improvtheatre' - expression activity

~ communication through expressions
~ talked in gibberish according to emotions required
~ Chant with emotions:

Worms,

I hate worms.

They drive me crazy.

Crazy?

I was crazy once.

And they put me in a home.

Then I died.

And the worms got me. (Repeat)

=> The calm – casting briefing

~ Got the role ‘Nani’, a 44 years old nanny from England (classified as low-class ppl)
=> 6pm – 12am

~ Immerse in the role

~ Dinner at camp 1 starts

~Had only porridge + veg + Peanuts (while high-claz ppl r having Chicken chop with wine!)

=> Syonanto

~ Escaped from the Jap soldiers through jungle without lighting

~ Tunnel experience (Pitch Dark!)
=> Clay review –Care (a series of 3: Irene - Trust; Joon - Love)

DAY 4
=> Morning PT
=> Breakfast
=> Clay Review ~ Sharing
=> Walk Of Life (12 Stations) The Alchemist
1) Outside Medical centre (Throw dice ~ no. must coincide with no. u shout) { I ran 18 times~!}
2) Belay School (Who am I?)
3) Koi Pond (Discard Something)
4) Swimming Pool (Trace hand)
5) Aviation Beacon (Oil + Spoon)
6) Single Tombstone (Bad habits)
7) Transformer (Throw away bad habits)
8) Peak Ascent (Write a love letter)
9) Jetty (5 things to more / less)
10) Indiana (Submit to God)
11) Expedition Quadrangle (Rest)
12) Swamp Tripod (Leap of Faith)
=> Your Culture, My Culture (Public forum)
=> Viewing of Completed video [Cool~ thou 1 tape was missing..]
=> Dinner (Fusion)
=> Indiana (Epilogue)
Epilogue:

Away from the city,

to a place without much technology.

Meeting strangers,

to begin a journey unsure.

Getting to know each other,
Building friendship together.
Using our hands for painting,
that represent our feelings.

Through the jungles in groups we go,
in our mind we shared a common goal.
Through the darkness the leaders lead,
seeing brightness is all we plead.

Personal time given to ourselves,
bringing us closer to our inner self.
Getting to know our soul once again,
We leap forward for a new life begin.

Physical challenges were what I expect,
But psycological challenge was what i met.
Friendship closely knitted thru hard times,
Will remain in my heart all the time.

=> Supper (Bread + Milo)
=> Clear Denali (11.30pm)
=> 1am Crazy Pool Party! [Captain's ball~!]
=> 3am ZZZzzzzZZZ

DAY 5
=> Breakfast at 7am
=> Write emails at Denali
=> Ideas sharing in Vinson Room
=> 10am back to mainland
=> Reflections at Bukit Chandu
~Lunch
~viewing of videos and artifacts of Malay Regiment who fought on the hill
~story of Lt Adnan
~Last debriefing
~Presentation of certificates
~Survey
~4pm ByE =..(

*P/S: Special thanks to Irene for providing the itinery. I 'ka-po' them from her blog.. BUT copyright permission was seeked beforehand... =) **contents, symbols & colours are edited.

An exciting journey begins...

2005-05-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

Okie.. I noe once agn i've made u all waited so long for my blog.. Alrite, now here i come... =)

My June Holidays started with P5 Camp in school (30 May - 1 June). I've always joined camps as a camper. But this time round, I'm one of the facilitators of the camp, which means i'm in charge of a camp group. Cool~ now i can get the feelings of ordering ppl ard & not getting ordered.. Ha~ =X

Well, actuali, my feelings r kinda mixed. Excited yet abit stressed. Coz i'm responsible of taking care of 20 students. N i'm always against the idea of having performances during campfire, cos i'm never gd at coming up with ideas for the performance & i'n never gd at performing.. I think I got stage fright... =-\

But Thank God! I got a GREAT student helper, Charmaine, Ex-Loyang student, now in Hai Sing Catholic High. She's so OnZ~! Actively invovled in every games & always cheering n screaming for my group(Saturn). N she clicked so well with the students. I can really trust her to help me take care of the students whenever i'm busy or when i needed some rest (in short, 'eat snake').. OppS~ =X Oh, not forgetting, she even helped me to come up with songs n dance steps for our campfire performance! Millions of Thanks to her... i dun haf to crack my head to think of wad to put up for campfire.. hee... ;)

I stayed in sch for one night. Went home on the 2nd night cos the nxt day i've got to prepare to go for ABS (Artward Bound Singapore)... Another exciting journey begins... Till i'm back agn... =)

Just a little info, why do i say my June will be exciting?... Cos i'll be too busy having fun =P ... Plans in June:

1) P5 Camp @ LPS (30 - 31 May)
2) Artward Bound Singapore @ Ubin (1 - 5 June)
3) Trip to Pulau Redang @ Malaysia (10 - 13 June)
4) Trip to Desaru @ Malaysia, Johor (20 - 22 June)

Dream come True... =)

2005-04-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

Ha~ I'm finally here to update my blog.. Got scolded by my fren.. So here i am.. =) Sorry to those who have been waiting... =X

Ok..First thing first...A VERY GOOD news to share with ALL of you~ My place in NIE is COMFRMED~!! haha~.. Long awaited dream... A dream come true after so many nightmares... Am reali looking forward to studying agn... =) But.. somehow, i'm qt afraid tt i might not be able to cope... I've changed so many identity in e past yr.. From a student to a relief teacher, n to a receptionist, n back to teacher but with greater responsibility, n now, i need to change my mindset back to student... ha~ no more scolding of student, but to get scolding by teachers...haha~ (-_-''')

Well, actuali i got my full enrolment package on Mon last wk.. I've phobia towrds my principal..Whenever she asks to see me, e first thing tt comes to my mind is "Oh no..Did i do something wrong AGAIN?" On Mon last wk, there's tis Art Workshop.. B4 it starts, Mrs Chin asked for me.. Right there in e Art Room.. In front of my colleagues.. Shocked me for a while.. Den "Congrats!" n she handed me a big envelope.. N Yeah~ tts e thing i'm praying so hard for... PTL.. =)

I'm so happy tt i needed to share my joy with someone.There seated next to me is Irene..my gd pal in LPS..i definitely wanted to shared my joy with her.However, the way she looked at me was different.. Thou she's trying hard to smile..I cld see from her eyes tt she is disappointed.When we got our letter frm MOE together,informing us tt our contract had been changed to Permanent Contract,we juz ran ard e staff rm telling our close frenz tt.. Tt moment was so fun n exciting.Tot we cld share e joy but i understand wad's going thru her mind.I got the package first n she's still worried abt her place in NIE. Thou her disappointment made me disappointed too.. But Hey,Irene, it's ok de k?Dun need to apologise..I know u dun mean it.. ;)

Btw, by tis time i'm writing tis, Irene has already got her enrolment package too~ Congrats, Irene! =) She got it 1 wk later than me,which is tis mon..This means she had been worrying for 1 wk..But e package came as a surprise to her.. e envelope was put on her table when she was having Oral Exam outside.. I saw it first n i've left her a surprise msg too~ ha~ =P Knowing her, juz like me, we cant hide our joy, we ran ard agn... ha~ =X

I'm going to sign e real contract tis Sat.. My Diploma course wld start is July.. hmm.. 2yrs course.. But i'll try my best to cross over to Degree course which will lasts another 2 yrs.. Irene and i will b going in together.. N mayb we'll b roommates in the hostel.. Ha~ Reali glad to haf known her.. At least i'm not alone fighting tis battle.. Hey.. Its reali not easy to find someone to strive with u huh?.. Having the same dream, same target.. =P

Last of All...To me... and Irene... and all my frenz who r fighting hard for ur dreamz.... 加油哦！;)

不要轻言放弃！~

你了解吗？;)

2005-04-05T09:52:00.000+08:00

人类是动物中最高等的。
人类也是动物中最聪明的。
但人类的情感也是最复杂的。

人的感情是多么的脆弱，
时间是最好的证明。
今天对你的好，
或许明天就可以变成另一种态度。
今天对你的微笑，
或许明天就变成了记忆。

人是贪心的，
永远不懂得知足。
有了人陪伴，
却希望有更多人疼爱。
一颗心，究竟能容纳几人？
一个，两个，还是三个？

人是自私的，
眼里只看得到自己。
只要自己快乐，
却忘了别人的感受。
给了别人希望，
却到最后，得亲手毁灭。

人是盲目的，

只懂得一味做自己想做的。

一直认为对的就做，

却已忘了为什么而做，为什么要做。

摆在眼前的，看似多么的正确，

却已分辨不出，对错是非。。。

人是多么的难理解，

我不能怪任何不了解我的人。

因为，我发现，

我已开始不了解自己了。。。

加油！

2005-03-18T10:35:00.000+08:00

Realised tt i haven been updating tis blog. N well, my tagboard is abit quiet too.. Haha.. [-Knock knock- Anybody there?]

Hmm..Tis week is March hols le..N it's coming to an end soon. I've been going back to sch everyday. To do some markings n to decorate my classroom. Spent some time finding quotes to put in the room, hopefully can motivate the kids to work harder for the nxt term, n well, to motivate myself too... Been a fruitful week.. At least i'm doing someting useful n something i like..

Realised tt i love coming back to sch. Thou i still will be lazy to wake up in the mornings, but once i'm in sch, i feel very comfortable n at ease. Feel tt i can complete more stuffs in sch than at home. I love my little corner in the staff room.. love my colleagues.. love the sch envirnment.. simply feel tt tis is my 2nd home.. haha.. reali dun mind coming back here aft NIE.. =)

Oh well, coming ack to the kids, Reali hope tt the kids will come back nice n more obedient. Term 2 = to mid yr exams coming. Term 1 was reali a dsappointing one.. Feel tt i've wasted the whole of the 3 mths... *sob* I'm cracking my head now as to how i shld make my lessons more interesting.. n how i can get them interested in chinese.. Anyone haf any gd ideas to share?

I reali dun mind putting in more efforts into creating a gd environment for learning.. as i think environment is an important factor for learning too.. tts y i'm back in sch everyday... i reali wan to make a difference.. hoping tt these kids can reali b interested in their Mother Tougue, something which i feel tt as a chinese u shld noe de.. I'm not doing all these decorating for fun or for the Bosses to see.. All i'm asking for is tt the kids can change their attitude towards learning.. Tts all i'm asking for, tts all i'm hoping for.... ... But it's easier said than done...

Hmm.. gotta work VERY hard nxt term.. haven reach my goal of using their results to prove my ability yet... 加油、加油、加油！努力、努力、再努力！=)

I'm Not Forgotten...

2005-02-28T11:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. It's been a long time since i go back to church..I always think that i've 背叛了 God, tts why i've been put to trials times n times again..I know i deserve it..But somehow I cld feel tt God is still with me, He has not forget abt me.. He had sent many ppl to help me n support me...

Had a very interesting chat with 2 of my colleagues some time ago.. One was a new teacher tt came in only tis yr, Irene, she's same age as me, so we clique qt well.. One was a more experienced teacher, but young strong guy, Kenneth. Din reali tok to him de.. But tt day, i forgot how we started toking, n eventuali e 3 of us started toking abt Christianity. Well, actuali e 2 of them la.. But juz by hearing their conversation, u can feel tt they r different.. They r different in the way tt they handle difficult situations very well n calmly, and they cld speak with so much confidence.. I truly admire them...

Irene, a special girl. She juz came in for abt 2 months. But she's a form teacher now. Dealing all problems she encountered bravely n confidently. Everywhere she goes, she juz 散发着无比的自信. Irresistable.. Haha.. =P She's a newbie to teaching. But yet she's so matured in the way she teach n handling unexpected situations. She definitely has the passion for teaching,much more than i haf. Juz by looking at how much efforts she puts into every lessons, u'll noe tt. She oso has a great passion for God.. She's actively involved in Choir ministry.. A very sweet n nice girl.. She took e initiative to help ppl.. Knowing tt i was fr CHC b4 n now no longer there, She actually photocopied her sermon notes for me every wk.. Thanx Irene, I reali appreciate tt.. The words of God r reali of great help.. She is definitely a gd testimony of God.

Kenneth was oso once from CHC. But very long ago when CHC was still at e old Hollywood Theatre. Well, he's another good testimony of God. Trusting in God whole-heartedly n praising God wherever possible. Like Irene, they both bring smiles to everyone, everywhere they go.

Indeed, God's child is different.

Juz today, when i came back from lessons, I saw this can of Magic Bean Stalk from Mini Toons on my table. Surprised. Den i read e small note tt came wif e gift. It was from Irene. We were toking abt this Bean Stalk the other day. Saying tt we shld buy for each other, since the wordings on the bud 不适合买给自己的, 只能送人. Den i went to find out the price n stuffs, & was waiting for a chance to get tt for her.. But she surprised me by getting tt for me, using the reason "to celebrate your successful lesson observation". Cool~ She's always full of surprises.. haha.. this is not the first time she wrote me a note.. Every now n den, she'll write an encouraging note n secretly put on my table.. i can feel her sincerity n thoughtfulness frm the wordings she wrote.

She's juz like an angel tt God secretly puts in my life.. Using her to show His care n concern for me.. Wanting me to know tt I am not forgotten.. Reminding me tt, I am, still, on His mind... ..

GD NEWS~!.. with abit of bad news thou..=P

2005-02-25T15:43:00.000+08:00

Hooray~! No more Observations le~! yeah~ =)

12, was the no. of hrs i slept for the past 4 days. Average of 3 hrs per day. We r suppose to sleep at least 8hrs per day isn't it? 8hrs per day, meaning in 4 days, can get 32hrs of sleep= more than 1 day's sleep in 4 days. For e past 4 days, i only slept for half a day~! My God.. How did i survive tt? Haha.. No wonder i am falling sick so easily.. immune system down... But, it's lucky enough tt i din get any outbreak of pimples so far. Haha.. Anyway, there's more reasons to celebrate... =)

Yes, to celebrate tt the observations are over~! N results r positive... Great.. Thank God tt i got a lenient HOD.. He's very encouraging... The remarks n grading (VG, G, FG) for diff category is all from e 1st two.. V. gd & gd... Better than i expected... Was so worried aft the lesson.. But PTL, Everything's alrite... 终于可以放下心中的一块大石头了... Now i'm gaining back my confidence.. believing tt i can get into NIE soon.. Counting down time...

Oh btw, ThAnX to everyone who had kept me in ur prayers.. 我能顺利渡过这个难关，你们可算是功不可抹呢... =) Thanx once agn... =P

Alrite, Gotta get back to my markings le... Juz realised tt i got lotsa work to mark..neglected all the markings due to the observation (yes.. 'cos of it agn.. -_- )... Alrite, i'll stop here.. Till i'm free agn... =P

Appeal for Help

2005-02-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

Had a very busy time last week, can't really enjoy any outings at all. Busy preparing for my 2 observation tis wk, one by vice-principal, one by HOD. Gotta write lesson plans and find lotsa materials to put up a gd 'wayang' show in front of them. I need to pass tis observation b4 i can relax n my chances of going into NIE tis July is higher. So, i'm going all out.... Ya.. ALL out...

Well, great news~! By the time i'm writing tis entry, i had my first observation le, e one by VP. N the outcome seems gd. VP recognised my effort~!! GrEaT~ But of coz, there r still rooms for improvement. She said my teaching got no probs, its juz my management they r looking for. Well, today she observed my P4. No prob, cos small class. So now, i need to concentrate on my P2, my HOD observing. Anyway, I guess i've passed e first obstacle, "I can see efforts put in." this sentence really boost my confidence. Juz one more mountain to climb, N i'll see hope.. hee~ lousy decription.. but well, i feel happy now. At least for NOW...

'Observation'.. tis word fills my head now..All i'm busy and stress with, is tis observation thingy.. Thou actuali i'm not qt sure even if i get thru tis, is my place tis July confirmed? Or will i encounter anymore problems? -ChOy~ *Touch Wood*- Well,still, may i appeal to all my pals out there who r reading this now, Please pray hard for me kz? If i get thru tis Thursday, i'll treat u all to something kz? haha~ Okie.. So i thank u guys in advance ya? ThanKx aLot~!! ;P

I'm MAD~!

2005-02-11T16:14:00.001+08:00

Juz came back aft a meeting wif my principal. Surprisingly how she can talk non-stop for 1 n a half hr. But well, its within tis 90mins tt i've changed my opinion of her. Thou i dunno whether i'll change my tots agn, but for now, she's a gd principal. Ha~

The agenda of e meeting consist of Curriculum,Discipline,Development and AOB(<-which i dunno wad it stands for =X). But we din go point by point. We juz had some discussions and some stories from Mrs Chin, den tts it. Mrs Chin did a great job in discussing these supposedly serious matter in a very relaxing way. Thou we are all tired(aft a long sch day,plus late nights during CNY), i was very alert(except for some occasionally movement as i wanna hide from the SUPER cold air-con), n to some extend find it interesting. For the FIRST time.. Haha~

We touched on alot of topics such as Dress Code, handling situation, how to interact more with parents n students, how we shld carry ourselves and drawing lines with the students, etc. Learnt some techniques from the stories tt Mrs Chin told us, which always happened to be "in her previous sch". Rem e story of how she told a parent to come earlier to pick e child up was reali something to learn from. She told e parent directly in a not-so-direct way. Chim huh? Guess tt reali comes with experiences. Mrs Chin has been in education sector for VERY long. She started younger than me... wah!

She somehow inspired me to work harder to achieve my dream. Her post today din come by easily. She worked reali hard to achieve wad she deserve today. Teaching is not an easy job. We have to expect stress to be involved. But be positive. Turn e negative stress into positive dessert. STRESSED = DESSERTS. Most importantly, u haf to ENJOY teaching. Even after many, MaNy, MANY years..

The moment you become a teacher, you are a special teacher. Indeed, we are special. In our own ways. I shldn't keep complaining. I haf my own talents to put into teaching. To make lessons interesting. Today i've heard my colleagues define the word "teaching". Its not only imparting knowledge, but oso imparting values. We r imparting knowlegde tt the students cannot get in the books. They r experiencing life. They r learning from us as well as we r learning from them. Everyday is a brand new day in teaching. U can't expect wad is going to happen tt day. Not many job can have so much different everyday ya? Teaching is the special one. Teaching is to make a difference in their lives, n they r making a difference in our lives too. While we r moulding the future, they r moulding ours. Wad an interesting job. Hee~ =P

Teaching is not so scary actuali,depending on ur mentality. Tts y i muz enjoy tis career, giving the students the best in wadever i do n teach. I wanna Make A Difference, to the students and to my life. I hope i'm MAD now~! ;)

Life is not always wad it seems

2005-02-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

Finally, i've decided to sit down n create a blog of my own. Well, cos i need to tok to somebody rite now...Feeling frustrated, disappointed, sad,... mixed feelings...

It all started with the BAD 'A' level results. Failed to go into any Uni... Went into depression.. Den finali God showed grace upon me, i received a letter frm NIE, offering me the Diploma in Education. Finali~! Everything's over! That was wad i thought, AT FIRST.

The nxt thing i knew, i was posted to a pri sch to do contract teaching. The school, the principals, my colleagues.. Nice environment, nice people.. Everything juz looked so fine.. Den, only did i realised, those were only smoked-screen...

I tot my ambition of becoming a teacher cld be fulfilled here. But i nv knew tt my path towards realizing my dreams cld b so tough.. I've been challenged times n times again.. All because of Classroom Management (CM).

Bad, bad, bad... Tt was wad my Boss tot of me. Ok, i admit i reali din qt master CM last yr. But i've been trying so DAMN hard. N still.. it's BAD.. If u can't even control 9 students now, imagine 40 in ur class. 9 students, ya.. Tt is only 1 claz.. i got 20 students in all, for 3 levels. Ha.. 20 students.. U muz b thinking, easy job.. But u noe wad?! They r ALL from the last claz.. The lousiest results, the Bad-est attitude... My P2 worst, all those tt haf Attitude Problems r in my claz. They consists of the Quietest to the noisiest. I got pupils who dun open mouth at all or pupils who open mouth all the time. I got pupils with the nicest handwriting to the ugliest handwriting. Pupils who r energetic all e time to pupils who r sleepy all the time. I dreaded going to tt claz..I'm afraid of tt claz..

N all becoz of tis claz, my Boss tok to me abt CM AGAIN today. I cried. Hiding in e toilet. I'm disappointed, cos my afford wasn't recognise. The principal only walk pass e room when i'm scolding pupils n the rest of the time when my claz is gd, she's not there. I'm angry, with myself. Why cant i even control a small little claz? I'm hurt, is my ambition going to end here? Shld i reconsider abt this path? Sometimes i wld think, will i b able to go back to studies agn? I long to be back to the books agn. I promise i'll study hard tis time.

But despite all this i tried to b optimistic. Bad claz doesn't mean i'll die there.. Perhaps its a blessing.. Cos only those with not-so-gd results can have more rooms to improve. N once they improve, its clearly visible. Tts my goal.. To use their results to prove my ability.. As for CM, i'll try even HARDER.. I'm sure i'll succeed one day.. I'll nv give up! Never!

God is always putting me to trials..I'm sure Everything happens for a reason.. I believe He's not trying to grind me into dust, but to polish me into brilant GEM. Only if i pass all these challenges, den i'll grow into a better person.. Life may not be as beautiful as it seems, but always try to look at the brighter side.. Life still goes on...

明天会更好！

P/s: Pardon me if there is any wrong usage of words n grammar. If u noe me well enough, u shld noe tt will happen! =P