Something is happening to me.

I felt like i'm not me anymore. For the past 2 days, i've been abnormally quiet. I didn't dare to speak up even thou there were thots in my mind. I chose to keep quiet and be a passive follower. I'm afraid of many things, the small insects, the trees, the water... These are the things i normally will "cool-ly" overcome.

But this time round was different.

I was kind of like living in my own world,

thus didn't really enjoyed the camp so far.

I missed home and I couldn't really adapt this time.

What's happening?

Something is holding me back... but i dunno wad.

Is that something good or bad? I dunno.

I'm LoSt.

... ...I need to find myself back fast... ...

14/09/05 (Day 3)

8:31 am

Isolation Time

OBS Camp 2 Jetty

Can't believe it~! It's my only break this whole sem..And it's only ONE week..BUT yet i actually went for OBS for 4 whole days.. Hmm...

Well.. I'm not going to tell u in details what we did from Day 1 - Day 4 like before. I'm juz going to give u a brief account of the activities we did. In short, we only did kayaking (Day 1 & 2) and Trekking (Day 3 & 4). -end of story- Haha~ i'm not joking here.. It's true.. =)

Previously in June, i went for ABS(another course of OBS), expecting to haf physical 'trainings'. But there was none. So i decided to join this OBS. N yupz i've got all the PhYsIcAl i wan..

However,I was reali challenged.Didn't reali enjoy much probably due to my low adaptabilty, as we camped out in unfamiliar places for 3 nights. First night was reali bad for me.We've kayak-ed for the whole day. With sea water on us + we got stuck in the storm in the big open sea + sweat due to first time kayaking and it was d*** difficult + we CANNOT bathe + karaokae session frm nearby kelong, how can i sleep? Reali tired but was afraid of the dark too. Wake up every hr juz hoping to see the sun.For the first time i missed the big bright sun up there. Without much rest, i woke up the next morning in a very bad mood...

The next 2 nights got better.The place we camped was better. Not that dark and at least there is toilet. But, now, e problem is, we have to trek to our destination with our big heavy bags. Our bags are filled with our rations - canned food,biscuits,bread,noodles,fruits, and oso pots and tins and of cos our own stuffs such as clothes and shoes, oh, n life jackets too. I reali feel like i've grown inches shorter after that.

This time round, I feel tt i didn't open myself up much. Didn't speak much during our discussions. Reali dunno wad went wrong. It's reali a pity tt i only started to open up more during the last 2 days. Couldn't enjoy when i'm in my own world. Althou i wouldn't say this course was fun, i would say tt its one unforgettable experience for me. At least, thru this camp, i begin to rediscover myself - the more quieter side of me... ...





This is before we set off..



After a day of SeA, RaIn and SwEaT..(This is where we camp for the 1st night)



Setting off for Trekking..(we stayed here for 2nd nite)



Look at those BIG bags on our back~!



Girls PoWeR~!



See how tired and frustrated i am..



EXHaUsted..



We trekked 8 HRS here.. Our 3rd nite was spent here.. Best campsite of the 3...



I survived anyway.. =)(btw, tt's our instructor, Steven)



Finally..The Last Day... =)


p/s: Click the pictures to enlarge them for better view.. =P

Pictures: Courtesy of our ever cute NuRsE..Dimas.. ;)